I know it is cheesy, but...

There is good and bad in living the bachelorette life.  The problem is deciding if the good outweighs the bad.

I love to go out and I always have a great time with Rena making five minute friends, and some that last longer. I love living the single life, going where I want to seeing who I want to and not having to worry about having someone at home waiting and wondering who I am with and getting put out if I don't spend enough time with them. I enjoy learning more about myself and what I want out of life each day. I enjoy being able to accomplish the simple tasks like hooking up a dryer, TV, or fixing simple problems on my own. The best part about being single is that I don't have to worry about letting someone in, giving anyone that power to break my heart. Each time it happens it gets harder and harder to open myself up to others. I feel myself getting more and more closed off, some days I don't mind it.

Then some days I hate it. When I've had a bad day I would like to be able to come home to someone who will hold me tight and tell me not worry. I would like to be able to have someone to cook dinner for. And sometimes yes I get tired of going to bed by myself night after night, of having no one to lay next to and share intimate pillow talk with it.

I heard a song the other day "Just The Way You Are" by Bruno Mars. The entire time I thought I know this cheesy but I would love to have a guy feel that way about me for a little while. I would love to have one of those epic love stories, where everything in the world has lined up so the two of us can be together for awhile. You know like those high school summer loves where for a time neither of you can get enough of each other. For that space of time the world is perfect and aligned just for you.

But until that time comes here is to being a bachelorette and five minute friends.

Firework

"Do you ever feel like a plastic bag,
Drifting through the wind, wanting to start again?
Do you ever feel, feel so paper-thin
Like a house of cards, one blow from caving in?

Do you ever feel already buried deep?
Six feet under screams, but no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you?
'Cause there's a spark in you

You just gotta ignite the light, and let it shine
Just own the night like the Fourth of July

'Cause baby, you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go "oh, oh, oh!",
You're gonna leave 'em all in oh oh oh

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane, comes a rainbow

Maybe the reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will glow
And when it's time you know

You just gotta ignite the light, and let it shine
Just own the night like the Fourth of July

'Cause baby, you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go "oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em all in oh oh oh

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time you let it through-ooh-ooh

'Cause baby, you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go "oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em all in oh oh oh

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon"

Who would have thought that Katy Perry would have a song this good?

New Blog

So last night at about 1 in the morning I decided that it was finally time to join the world of blogging. After all everyone needs a place to write down their deepest darkest secrets right? Now it is time to get ready for work, when I have more time I will do a real blog.