I know it is cheesy, but...

There is good and bad in living the bachelorette life.  The problem is deciding if the good outweighs the bad.

I love to go out and I always have a great time with Rena making five minute friends, and some that last longer. I love living the single life, going where I want to seeing who I want to and not having to worry about having someone at home waiting and wondering who I am with and getting put out if I don't spend enough time with them. I enjoy learning more about myself and what I want out of life each day. I enjoy being able to accomplish the simple tasks like hooking up a dryer, TV, or fixing simple problems on my own. The best part about being single is that I don't have to worry about letting someone in, giving anyone that power to break my heart. Each time it happens it gets harder and harder to open myself up to others. I feel myself getting more and more closed off, some days I don't mind it.

Then some days I hate it. When I've had a bad day I would like to be able to come home to someone who will hold me tight and tell me not worry. I would like to be able to have someone to cook dinner for. And sometimes yes I get tired of going to bed by myself night after night, of having no one to lay next to and share intimate pillow talk with it.

I heard a song the other day "Just The Way You Are" by Bruno Mars. The entire time I thought I know this cheesy but I would love to have a guy feel that way about me for a little while. I would love to have one of those epic love stories, where everything in the world has lined up so the two of us can be together for awhile. You know like those high school summer loves where for a time neither of you can get enough of each other. For that space of time the world is perfect and aligned just for you.

But until that time comes here is to being a bachelorette and five minute friends.