You broke my heart. I have racked my brain and tried everything I could think to make you happy without ruining mine, but after so many heartbreaks and so many nights spent alone and sad, I feel I deserve some happiness. I found what makes me happy, he treats me well, respects me, loves me and so much more.
For the last year and more I have been your doll, you have dressed me, opened my eyes to a world I really don't want to be apart of, changed me from who I am to who you want me to be, saved me from myself, made my decisions for me, let me cry on your shoulder, cried on my shoulder, screwed me over (although I was too nice to tell you what you really did and continue to do), and so much more.
When was the last time we did what I wanted to do? I mean really wanted to do, not go to a bar, not go shopping, not sit and watch T.V. at your place, not play dress up, but what I really wanted to do. Like going on a hike, going out of town for a night, going on a bike ride or spending all day outside by a pool. I know we are very different people, we have different likes and different wants, but why couldn't they be combined? Why did I have to lose myself to make you happy? Why whenever I finally won, it was only because it involved a party and drinking? And did I have to spend days hearing about how horrible things were when I finally had a good time?
There were times when you were there for me and helped me, and for those times I will always be grateful that I had you there. But now that I have found someone that I want to spend the rest of my life with, someone who means the world to me our life together has to fall apart? Two weeks ago you said that you have never seen me this happy, that I deserve this and now you are walking away because you can't handle it. I was there during your marriage being the third wheel, I was there during the new guy being the third wheel, I was there every time you went to bar and ignored me to find a new guy. When you had a guy that stayed around longer than a day our time went from girls time to you, him and then me being dragged along playing the third wheel yet again. I was always there, always in the background, always looking out for you and trying to save you from yourself.
When I found someone we both tried our hardest to keep you happy, he drove you around town running your errands with you expecting it and never saying thank you, but every time I wanted to spend time with him I got shit from you. Every time he said something he got shit and was made to feel like an idiot. The first time you met him you wanted me to use his connections and his like for me to get you what you wanted which he did for you. You never thanked him, but that day when we talked about something that matters to him your response was "I don't care." to his face you said that after what he did for you, then when we wanted to spend time together because we hadn't seen each other in over two days you got mad and walked away. Tell me how this is right? Why can you expect me to always be there in the background never complaining always the third wheel but when I add an addition to our group and we both make a huge effort to do what you want and never make you the third wheel it is not ok?
I'm sorry that I am tired of it, I'm sorry I can't listen to your escapades with a new guy every night then you not understanding why they want to keep talking to you. I'm sorry that our chapter is ending, I will always love you and will always think of our time together with fond memories, I wish we could still be friends. I am not sorry that you have moved from my number one priority to my number two. Both priorities are important me, both have my love forever. I hope you have only the best things in your life, always know that I will be here for you like always waiting in the background.
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