Carrie Underwood - Mama's Song

For my mom.

This is not what I wanted

For the first time in years I was truly happy, I was starting to stand up for myself take what I wanted, and feel like me instead of an extension to someone else. I found the man of my dreams, the one I'm going to spend my life with. He treats me like a princess, takes care of me, worries about me and loves and adores me.  He is everything I ever asked for. But in order to to keep him I have to lose my best friend.  I know through life friends come and go you lose more than you keep but I never thought I would lose this one.  I was looking forward to having her there helping me plan the perfect wedding.  Having her there when I start my family, being the favorite aunt.

But because life changes and moves forward, if both are not willing to move forward and push to keep the relationship if looks as if we are both robbed of the memories we dreamed of having together. Life is sad and hard but I always expected to have her there for her to make my life better and me to make hers better.  But are we both willing to fight for the relationship as ours live change and dreams become fulfilled?

This is not what I wanted.